I got my result semester lately and was quite surprised by the outcome.

My fav class-that i put a lot effort compare to others
-try my very best
-which i submit progresses in time
GOT C.... hahah XD

wherelse i got a B in the least expected and hardest subject
-a subbject where i hate and don`t really bother on the assignments as long as i pass

I thought as long i put in my best effort at least my result will be better then those who dont really care much...
well NO-
Its the other way round

I start getting wary of drawing-
coz whenever i start I start hearing doubts

-are u sure its right?
-too slow?too sketchy?
-too ugly?why this?why that?
-wrong porpotion?composition?mood?yes?no?-

In the end I just give up and pick up my DS lol

I missed the days where i use to draw freely without any worries
or too much questions asked

I know Its important to keep everything perfect-
but sometimes too much is really too much

maybe I am just not the artistic type
SHIT-that means I choose to enter the wrong colleage!
I shuld have joined the army
or become a teacher


I dont really want to care
I just wana quickly graduate and get out of this colleage
I dont really know what to expect anymore-